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[ the thing is, he's not mad at shiro. maybe he should be, but he's not, because he understands that going from ace pilot with promising space exploration career to prisoner of war to leader of a ten thousand year old resistance faction doesn't leave a lot of room for the smaller, interpersonal problems. pidge is the one with a real cause for a grudge, anyway, and shiro is so painfully, obviously, trying his best to be the leader they need. he doesn't deserve keith hunting him down in the middle of the night to talk about the fact that they had toed the fraternization line uncomfortably close during keith's academy days, and then he thought shiro was dead, and then he started getting weird fucking dreams about alien energies and maybe shiro not being dead, and then... everything else.

shiro is treating him like one of the guys and he understands why. it's easier that way. it's been years and they're both different people now, except keith still has those same dreams--not the ones that left him awake in the dark and sure that shiro was alive, sure that he was breathing somewhere, alone, needing, and so helpless that it hurt to breathe. no, these are the old academy standby, thinking of shiro leaning in close, shiro taking off his shirt for training, shiro finally turning around and seeing him looking. the kind of stupid fantasies that left him hard and wanting when he woke, frantically jerking off just so he could get up and function around shiro without popping wood.

(he still has the dreams about shiro being alone somewhere, every now and then. he gets up and paces down the hallways and brushes his hand over shiro's door, but he never hits the comm button. they have each other now, or something, he tells himself. the dreams are clearly some kind of influence from the lions, and they're all together now.)

anyway he has shiro back and there's still a fucking glass wall between them. no unnecessary touches. no late nights together in one of their rooms, even though all they had ever done was talk. it's frustrating as fuck and he gets it and he's trying really hard to be fucking understanding, trying not to push. allura had said that they might notice some influences from the lions, now that they'd all established a bond, that they might be more sensitive to each other, but keith doesn't feel sensitive so much as scraped raw, holding everything back. he wants to hit something all the time. he snaps at lance and flings himself into battle when he has the chance and he thinks sometimes he can feel shiro through that link they're all supposed to have, that hint of quiet strength coupled with some sort of strapped down emotion-- loneliness? pain? --but then it's gone and he's left wondering whether he imagined it in the first place.

they'd been encouraged to go and spend time with their lions to strengthen their mystic bonds or whatever, but here keith is guiltily fucking sneaking around the wrong hangar, running his hand carefully over the black lion's sleek metal skin. that tiny little place in the back of his head where his weird impulses and gut feelings come from isn't telling him that he's unwelcome, but he knows that this is kind of suspicious. ]

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[ He hated alphas who were only concerned with getting an omega on their knot, or a beta if they couldn't find an omega who'd take them. They were the worst sort and he'd had to knock a couple heads together more than once to make sure that the alphas knew that they wouldn't tolerate that kind of shit when it came to the Garrison.

He's sure not to make the same mistakes, here. Lance deserves better than that; if he's going to do this with Shiro, he can damn well make sure that Lance enjoys it, every single bit of it, especially given all the -- what, surprises? Unanticipated side-effects? He's not sure what the term is. He does know what his duty is, though, even if he's not fully alpha anymore. ]

Shh, it's fine.

[ Though he's not sure what Lance is apologizing for, it doesn't matter. He doesn't need to apologize, not when he's warm and willing and tossing that ridiculous robe off and away so that Shiro has unlimited access to all the tanned skin he could hope to touch and lick and taste. It's sweet Lance seems to think he's panicking because of this, rather than that this-- heat, rut, whatever, is so strong that he's worried it'll overwhelm his thinking.

Lance comes quickly and Shiro's terribly pleased, not thinking to warn as he places a hand straight against his chest and shoves him down onto the bed, pulling with his other hand - a little come-wet, but that's probably not the worst thing to worry about here - on his thigh, leg, tugging him. It's graceless, but he makes sure Lance doesn't fall on his knees or bend his legs weird and then dives directly after him to start cleaning up the mess on his hand and belly, returning the favor. The scent of come mixed with Lance's slick is good, but his own body can't stop reminding him how good he would smell if it were Shiro's come mixed with Lance's wetness.

Shuddering out a breath, he mouths a kiss to his thigh when it's done and then debates manhandling him to face down and decides against it. Instead, he grabs at Lance's thighs and pulls him up until he's got only his shoulderblades on the bed. His lower back rests against Shiro's belly and the tops of his thighs and his legs are draped over his shoulders. It gives him perfect access to the wetness smeared there, lets him duck his head down and lick over his twitching hole. Next time, he thinks, he'll build up to it. Right now, he buries his face and eats him out with almost vicious enthusiasm. The hand that's not being used to hold Lance's chest and keep him in place shifts to his dick, jerking him off while he fucks his tongue into Lance. ]

[ lance would sure as hell be panicking if he were to suddenly go into the opposite thing of the thing he's expecting, ok, he's just assuming. shiro doesn't let them see things like panic anyway. he'd run off and locked himself away before any of them could find out that he was like this, presumably out of some dumb instinct to protect them or spare them or whatever, and he wants to-- he wants to make sure that shiro knows that it's okay. that the team is there for him.

or that lance is here for his dick, whatever. shiro needs it and lance can give it (wants to give it) and that's the important thing, right? even keith can't do this for shiro.

anyway orgasm always leaves him kinda limp and useless, all the things in his brain gratifyingly shutting off for a few minutes, which is why he doesn't quite realize at first that shiro is-- cleaning him up, oh god, he can't handle this, he is never going to be able to look at shiro ever again without popping wood, keith is going to murder him.

even though he's just come it won't take him long to get hard again, between his own teenage hormones and shiro's heat having pulled him into a sympathy cycle. he can smell his own heat mixed in with shiro's scent, now, a fainter version of an omega's overwhelming sweetness signalling his fertility and readiness to be bred. being flipped onto his stomach is something he would've expected but shiro manhandles him up, his legs over shiro's shoulders and god, he hadn't realized-- okay he'd known but he hadn't really known how strong shiro was, that he can lift lance almost all the way off the bed like it's nothing, alpha strength on full display. he opens his mouth to say something and then honest to god squeals as shiro licks him there, his hips bucking helplessly against the iron hold. he clutches wildly at the bed and at shiro, trying to find something to hold onto, but all he can really do is tip his head back against the sheets and make horrible embarrassing noises as shiro's tongue fucks into him. he's never, he's heard of this before but he's never done it or had it done to him, he'd never pictured shiro or any alpha licking him and it feels so fucking good he might actually die. his hips squirm and writhe without any direction from him and he wishes wildly that he could push back into it, that he could grab shiro's hair and hold his mouth there--

oh. well. he's grabbed shiro's hair and is holding his mouth there, trying to press it harder against his needy grasping hole, and all the while there are words falling out of his mouth that he can barely hear, cuss words and please in spanish and broken, choked off noises that aren't words at all, just helpless begging sounds. ]

Oh god, oh, oh, oh god, oh fuck, Shiro, Shiro, Shiro please--

[ he's so fucking wet, he can feel it on his thighs and dripping down his stomach from being held up like this, and he thinks he might actually be tearing up as his cock fills out under shiro's fingers, drooling down towards his chest. ]

[ He ought to ask, ought to check in each step of the way but he can't seem to stop himself, and he has to trust that Lance is going to be able to articulate his own wants and dislikes, if he needs to. There's a single-mindedness to Shiro's actions - he just wants Lance to get off, wants him to enjoy himself because he didn't ask to get pulled into his own cycle.

If anything, they were relieved not to be on them for the most part, simply because it proved inconvenient when you had other things you both needed and wanted to do.

He doesn't seem upset, though. He smells interested, needy, and the noises he makes when Shiro licks over him are promising, at the very least. He can't get over how good Lance smells, either. Maybe it's partially due to this heat/rut mix, but it doesn't really matter. Lance tastes and smells good, masculine, if that had a smell.

Lance's cock leaks all over when he palms it, too, between that and Shiro licking over his twitching hole, dipping his tongue in intermittently, he knows he can get Lance there again, wants him to come all over his chest so Shiro can clean it off. He sounds good begging and he's so wet that the noises are soft, but audible as Shiro licks him, dragging his tongue over his balls every so often. Eventually, even he has to breathe so he busies himself with biting and licking over Lance's thighs while he jerks him off, shivering. ]

You're being so good for me, Lance. [ He's just stabbing out there, but given how badly Lance wants to seem to impress him at some points, he's figuring this isn't going to go totally awry. After a beat of hesitation, weighing the words, not sure if he should say them, he tries: ] Can you come again for me?

[ His hand tightens just a touch, wrist twisting at the end of each stroke up, ducking his head back down to lick back into him, slower, more deliberate, well aware of the noises now. ]

[ if anything, it's shiro saying his name like that that makes him shudder uncontrollably. warm and approving and pleased, maybe even fond. he and shiro don't have the same kind of connection that keith and pidge have to him, and he knows... he gets it, okay, he knows that he hasn't really been a stellar of example of courage or skill or strength or intelligence. he's done embarrassing shit. he got blown up once and everybody had to save him. he got tied to a tree. he fights with keith, obviously the favorite, and he hadn't really been pidge's boon companion at the academy, so it's not even that he did anything to protect the remaining members of the holt family, which shiro clearly feels a responsibility for. pidge had always looked after herself. lance hasn't been a very supportive beta to anyone, mostly because he hated the cliche of the supportive beta. it suddenly seems more important in front of an alpha that he desperately wants to make a good impression on.

that's probably hormones talking, anyway. but the approval in shiro's voice lights him up, makes his flush go even deeper and a funny hot feeling coil in his chest, like someone stroking a very sensitive nerve deep inside him that had never been touched. he's never had an alpha focus on him like this. praise him.

he bites his lip at the question but nods frantically, of course he can, he can do anything shiro wants or needs right now. he can feel the familiar sensation building in his balls, swollen and aching under shiro's tongue. one more breath that's almost a sob (he might be crying, he can't tell if it's sweat or tears making the hair at his temples damp) and shiro's tongue moves just right inside him and he stutters shiro's name, panting hard as he comes all over himself in long messy pulses. ]

[ It takes coordination to get Lance to be able to stay where he is without putting too much stress on his core asking him to hook his knees over Shiro's shoulders like that. He does what he can to keep him propped up a little bit, a hand bracing to make sure that he doesn't topple over.

It means he can use his hand to explore, pinching and plucking at Lance's nipples while his mouth works over his twitching hole, flicking his tongue in kittenish little licks before pairing each tug of his nipples with a longer, slower one.

Eventually his hand moves down and curls back around his cock, mouth alternating between teasing the heavy swell of his balls and going back to lick up the dripping mess on his thighs and fuck into him with his tongue all over again. Between those, Shiro talks to him, because Lance sounds like he's going nuts because of it. ]

You're being perfect for me. Doing so well.

[ When he finally comes, Shiro winds a hand around him and strokes him through it again, tempted to push him through to a third but deciding to take pity for the moment. Instead, he gently scoots back and lies Lance down so he can clean up the mess from his hand and Lance's belly, where come rolled down to his chest. Once that's taken care of, he crawls his way up Lance's body, kissing over his pulse gently. ]

Can I kiss you, or should I go rinse my mouth out?

Oh god. [ lance just moans weakly, his hands fluttering uselessly over shiro's skin as he's laid back and taken care of. isn't he supposed to do the caretaking? maybe if shiro were an actual omega instead of just smelling like one, or maybe that's just shiro, taking care of everyone except himself. ] I'm dead, you've killed me.

[ please don't expect him to have a brain to mouth filter right now. he feels like a limp noodle, beta instincts purring at having been found acceptable. he's gotten so used to not reacting, to not wanting to react and shoving down any hint of connection around alphas and omegas that it's strange to feel how satisfying it is to finally let go. shiro praising him is... it makes him squirm helplessly to even think about it, pathetically greedy for it.

it's the beta in him that pushes him up again after his chest has stopped heaving like a bellows and he can shove his nose against shiro's damp hair, inhaling him, winding his arms around shiro's shoulders like they belong there as shiro mouths along his neck. ]

You don’t smell like heat sickness anymore, [ he says shakily, relieved. there was always the chance that they could have done all this, gotten lance imprinted and everything and shiro's body might still have wanted a real omega or alpha to soothe his heat. on the scale of things, using just a single beta to handle a heat or a rut was only a little above using really expensive, customized ‘heat aid’ toys. at least that was what he'd always heard. a single alpha going into rut would happily mount a single compatible omega, but it could take a whole harem of betas to satisfy.

shiro’s weird heat/rut is still strong in the air and on his skin but the mix of lance's come and his slick combines into it in a way that seems right, balanced. one scent isn't wildly overpowering the other, indicating a poor match. ]

Go-- go rinse your mouth, and drink some more water, [ he manages, trying to sound authoritative instead of reluctant to let shiro get off him. ]

Then it's my turn to help you, okay?

Don't die, if you don't mind.

[ Oh, but he's smug. There's all that alphaness leaking through; he's taken care of his partner, he's done this much right. Everything else might be up in the air and he might not know what he's doing, but Lance is a melted puddle on the bed and Shiro can't stop touching him, running his hands down his thighs, up his belly. When Lance tries to push himself up, Shiro hitches one hand around his waist and the other flat against his back to pull him up solidly, into his lap, chest to chest. ]

No, I'm fine.

[ Well, not fine, but at the very least he doesn't feel like he's coming apart at the seams. Shiro tips his head to the side to let Lance nuzzle at him, sweeping a hand up and down the sweaty length of his back. Between them, Shiro's cock is still hard, precome beading and slipping down the tip, smearing against their bellies in shiny lines.

Maybe it's whatever weird omega thing is going on, but Lance gives him an order and Shiro sighs into his throat, feeling this weird sense of contentment at it. He settles him back down against the bed and unfolds himself, half-staggering off of it. It doesn't take long for him to freshen up, running his tongue over his teeth when it's done. Stepping back into the room is like getting hit all over again, the instincts wanting to take over before he breathes through it and clambers back up onto the bed, pressing messy kisses along Lance's legs, up to his thighs and over his belly, making his way up to Lance's mouth where he kisses him slower, tangling a hand in short hair. ]

[ oh no smug is a good look on shiro. of course right now lance would probably think anything would be a good look on shiro, but smug isn’t something he’s had directed at him before in a way that hasn’t made him feel like he’s been dunked on.

probably the orgasms had something to do with that. ]

No promises if you’re going to do that.

[ except for how he secretly really wants to do that again, eventually. maybe after they’ve taken care of that hard, insistent length rubbing against his belly. all the metal in it has warmed to body temperature by now and he’s really, really interested in getting to watch shiro come this time. he wriggles a little closer experimentally, feeling it slip and catch against his skin, ducking his face against the scent glands on shiro’s neck and inhaling deeply, pleased with himself. he did that. he put that faint note of balance and calm in the middle of shiro’s anxious, heavy heat/rut scent.

a more experienced attending beta probably would’ve gotten up and brought the water back to the bed so the alpha didn’t have to stir himself, but shiro seems ok with taking suggestions-- maybe more willingly than he’d expected out of an older alpha, but honestly what the fuck does lance know about how alphas act or don’t act during their cycle. he’s only ever bullied siblings and schoolmates into taking care of themselves.

the minute shiro isn’t holding him up anymore he falls back flat against the sheets, trying to muster the energy to care about the giant wet spot he’s sprawled in. he has to really push himself to move and ooze his way off the bed, guzzling down half a water bottle himself and sloppily tugging the super gross sheets off. it’s gonna be towels and spare sheets from here on out to save the mattress. he wipes the worst of the mess off his skin, too, a futile gesture for how he can still feel wetness ticklishly sliding down his inner thighs.

he’s noodley enough to want to just leave everything dumped on the floor but shiro deserves someone trying their best, so he takes the time to stuff the dirty sheets down the little hatch in the wall that presumably goes to the laundry and lays out the new things neatly enough, and also unpacks some of the supplies he’d brought and sets them within easy reach on the bedside table. more water and rations, easy to wolf down between bouts of fucking. lube, not that they seem to have a problem there. condoms, and an embarrassing little box of toys for both alphas and omegas that he shoves hurriedly in the drawer. the cold packs and temperature reducers he leaves in the bag on the floor, since it seems like they’re not going to have to do any emergency measures of trying to lower a heat sickness fever.

then shiro is crawling back over him and lance is making embarrassing noises before shiro even reaches the level of his mouth, hands flexing on shiro’s shoulders and even wrapping his thighs around shiro’s hips like he might disappear if lance doesn’t hold onto him. everything about him feels good, tastes good, smells good, and he forgets to be nervous about the way they’re kissing, greedy and eager. ]

[ Shiro doesn't bother hiding his low, warm rumble of a laugh when Lance says that, still terribly pleased with himself as he takes care of what needs done. When he comes back, he doesn't miss that the room has been tidied a little bit and he's grateful for it. It still smells like a mix of the two of them, the musk of a heat and the sharpness of a rut mixed together.

Distantly, he notes the supplies brought over, but the mix of heat/rut is still overwhelming enough that he doesn't really care; he's not hungry, he's barely thirsty right now. Brushing his teeth and downing a little water took care of most of the issue.

More important than anything else in his mind right now, is getting Lance back as close as he can again, kissing him until his lips tingle and he's panting softly, licking into his mouth, alternating slow and filthy kisses with harder ones, pushing Lance down into the bed and grinding his hips against him. It's good enough to get off like this, he's sure, but he wants -- he wants. Wants something in him, wants to be inside Lance. He can feel the slickness against the insides of Lance's thighs where he's got them hitched around Shiro's waist.

It'd be so easy to just reach a hand down, to angle his dick and push into him, rock until he gets off and knot him, his instincts demanding it. That's not how he wants to play this, though, so he doesn't. He draws back to catch breath instead and keeps to the slow, gentle rolls of their hips together, cocks slipping wetly while he leaves a ring of bruises against the tan skin of Lance's throat, nosing at his pulse, the scent so comforting he just wants to roll around in it. ]

Are you alright?

I’m good, I’m-- oh god, I’m good, I’m great, you’re great, [ he babbles, his knees hitching higher every time shiro’s teeth find his skin. freaking out over hickies will come later. lance has never had a hickie in his life and he’d never even entertained the possibility of letting an alpha mark him up, but if there’s anything that pleases an alpha during rut it’s physical evidence of ownership. his fingers slip to the small of shiro’s back and then he boldly squirms a hand between them, rubbing over the head of shiro’s cock and toying with the piercing. he’s still soft and loose between them but shiro is so hard and ready. ]

You should come on me, [ he blurts out suddenly, and then looks horrified, and then sort of rallies behind it the way he would for a really bad decision that’s already been made and can’t be taken back now. ]

Good--

[ Words are really overrated right now; Shiro mouths down the line of Lance's throat and leaves another mark just above where it becomes shoulder and then forces himself down, squirming a little to kiss over the expanse of his chest, biting lightly at a nipple.

He nearly collapses when Lance's hand dips down, toying with his cock, thumbing over the piercing and it's enough that he has to sink down over him, trembling helplessly as he ruts into it, gasping into Lance's throat. ]

Yes-- alright, yes.

[ Lance could ask for anything right now and he'd agree to it, really.

It takes a moment for him to get himself together enough to sink back but he settles on his knees between Lance's thighs and then hesitates, taking his cock in hand. ]

Where?

[ The question sounds ripped out of him because it is. His face, his belly, his ass, it's too many choices and Shiro's near mindless with it, fisting himself slow and steady. ]

Where-- wherever you want, it's fine, just.

[ he sits up and tangles his fingers around shiro's, clumsily helping him stroke himself. the location isn't important, it's the scent marking that will satisfy both of their animal instincts. his cheeks burn a furious red. ]

I just want-- to smell like I belong to you. [ and too quickly on the heels of that bit of humiliating truth: ]

It’ll help your hea-- your rut, it'll help your rut.

Yeah.

[ It won't stop it, but it'll sate it temporarily which is all he can hope for at this point in time. Shiro breathes out, shaky and uneven and focuses on the feel of Lance's hand on his dick again, smaller than his, different, but still good.

Jerking off onto him won't fix the ache inside him, the unsatisfied tension but it'll be a step closer and he knows this isn't going to end any time soon either way, so he settles himself closer. The tops of his thighs butt up under the undersides of Lance's and spread his legs apart so their cocks are near each other. Lance's hand is brushed gently away so he can do this himself, claiming.

It takes laughably few strokes to get himself off; slower at first and then firm, the purple head slipping between his fingers each tug until he hunches over and groans quietly, come spattering over Lance's cock, his belly, his chest. Recovery takes a few moments, his cock not softening but he doesn't expect it to, not right now. By the time his breathing settles, he inhales and oh, Lance was right, this is good. It steadies him further, the sight of Lance's tan skin splattered with white enough to make him shudder and lick his lips, hungry. ]

[ lance is blushing furiously the entire time, his fingers curling and uncurling in the sheets anxiously for some unknown fucking reason. he watches shiro work his dick and jerks as the first spurt of hot seed hits his skin-- and then the scent of it rolls over him in a wave as he inhales and he finds himself relaxing back into the bed, head tipped back to bare his throat, nipples hard and taut, a strange tide of reassurance carrying him. no one would doubt that he belongs to shiro now. the wet slide of come dripping down his cock is a maddening tease and he shivers as a fat rivulet edges down past his balls.

he shuts his eyes and rolls over onto his belly in one decisive movement, pushing himself up hands and knees while shiro's come spirals down his cock. presenting. his muscles are trembling, head hanging low while his heart pounds in his chest, but every instinct he has is whispering calm certainty, telling him this is the right thing to do. he'll be mounted, next, he'll be fucked mercilessly by his alpha and knotted, and bred. ]

Edited 2016-08-02 05:00 (UTC)

Better?

[ He knows that he feels better in a way he didn't think he would, not so instantly, not so easily. Between the satisfaction in getting off his partner and the mixed smell in the room, Shiro doesn't hesitate once Lance is rolled over. It's the next, logical step. Lance presents so easily, behaves so well and Shiro breathes out a sigh at the sight of it, hands lifting to cup Lance's ass and squeeze. ]

You're being so good for me.

[ He's dubious of too much praise or too much flattery, not wanting it to sound like he's being condescending, or like he's talking to a dog. Shiro spreads him gently, scooting up against the backs of his thighs so he can rest his dick there, idly sliding it back and forth across the slicked up mess around his hole. He's soaked; there's a wet-spot on the bed to prove it but Shiro doesn't care, dragging his cock idly against him. Every so often, the angle of his hips changes; the wet tip of his dick catches against Lance's hole, teases there and then slips away again. ]

Y-yeah. [ it’s almost a sigh, because it is better. humiliating as fuck being covered in someone else’s sticky, rapidly cooling jizz, but the beta part of him purrs happily and would kinda definitely be interested in shiro rubbing all of it into lance’s skin and then maybe marching him out in front of the others, especially keith, so that they could all smell that lance had been claimed by the alpha that all of them secretly wanted or envied--

okay, okay no, his hindbrain is terrifying and he mentally shakes himself, striving for some semblance of rational thought. he’s just helping shiro here, he’s not-- building a pack or starting a family, and it’s stupid to get attached to an alpha like this when the right omega could still walk by at literally any moment and sweep shiro into a mating bond. betas didn’t bond, they attended, either tagging along after a particular alpha or omega as they went through relationships or being drawn in by an established couple. betas could and did pair up, of course, as did alphas and betas or omegas and betas or same designation pairings, but there was always the lingering sense that those sorts of pairings weren’t stable, and plenty of people viewed them as unnatural or immature. younger betas flocked together as kids or shyly coalesced around confident alphas or charismatic omegas among neighbors and relatives, and then eventually grew into more mature pack dynamics once they got into school and started socializing with more people. lance’s particular beta standoffish-ness had, according to various school counselors, been chalked up to his attachment to his family, refusing to let go of his bonds with them in favor of joining an independent pack. he’d never wanted to and he’d resented the implication that one day he would just… fall in with a group of people and care intensely about them because maybe an alpha sniffed him once, or an omega sat next to him during mess hall. everybody knew that it was easy to win over betas. everybody knew that they were natural followers, you didn’t even have to be particularly nice to them and they’d still fall all over themselves for the slightest bit of attention. they didn’t challenge alphas and they didn’t compete with omegas.

of course it’s that particular fact that allows him to be here right now, helping shiro, so maybe he shouldn’t be too hard on his nature. if he’d been an alpha or an omega he could’ve easily rubbed shiro’s altered instincts the wrong way (and maybe that was the point? maybe the galra had done this on purpose to ruin their ability to work as a team?) and made the situation worse, but betas were supposed to be steady, calming, supportive influences.

the praise has him whimpering despite himself, some greedy awful little part of him hoarding every single word away so he can obsess over it later. shiro pleased with him. shiro happy and attentive and ready to take what lance is offering, even though he’s young and inexperienced and, let’s be real, has very little to recommend him as a good addition to a pack. greed wins out over his embarrassment as he rocks his hips back against shiro’s dick like he’s trying to catch it, feeling the hot metal at the tip dragging over his skin. he’s ready, he’s so ready, he doesn’t even think to mention that he’s never done this before in case it makes shiro decide to stop. ]

I can be better for you, [ he promises, want clear in his tone. ] Let me-- please let me, I’ll be so good for you, just put it in, please…

[ With another alpha, he'd take longer - spend more time opening them up, fingers and tongue and even a toy if they had it. It's strange to think about it - that he could have these sorts of relationships now, not being under the Galra's thumb, not being locked away.

He doesn't want an alpha, though, or an omega. It's a thought he doesn't really know how to give much consideration to. He wants Lance, wants to bury himself in against the other man's body and take what he's offering, doesn't want anything beyond that. This is good. This is enough.

Shiro licks a line up his back, pressing kisses along the dips of his spine, nosing against his shoulderblades while he keeps the idle rocking up. They should have had time to discuss this more, should have made certain they were clear about what they wanted but they didn't and it takes everything to keep his head clear if he can. Holding back is becoming less and less possible; Shiro drops a hand down and curls it around his cock, dragging it one final time against all the slickness. Under him, Lance is talking and his mind picks out words - please, put it in--.

A breath trembles out of him as he finally gives up, lets the fat head of his cock rest against Lance's hole and then pushes, soft, easy rolls of his hips, pulling back and then sinking further until finally, he's buried in him. His hips curve against the back of Lance's, his whole body blanketing him, leaving his mouth to press kisses against the line of his shoulders while he waits for Lance to adjust and lets himself breathe through the sudden rush of heat and warmth and right. ]

Oh god.

[ he sounds drunk to his own ears, ecstatic and slurred as shiro carefully, slowly nudges inside him. it should’ve been painful, probably, he’s always heard that first times for untried betas are supposed to be difficult and slow-going with impatient alphas, but it feels like his body just opens up and swallows shiro down as greedily as his mouth had, wet and clinging. it doesn’t hurt at all. there’s just a deeply satisfying burn and stretch and shiro is rubbing places inside him that he didn’t know were starving for contact. he can feel-- he thinks he can feel each individual metal stud and bar in shiro’s pierced cock moving in him and he clenches helplessly, chasing that feeling, his mouth hanging open and humiliating little noises being fucked out of him every time shiro moves. ]

You feel so good, shit, you’re so--

[ he pushes himself back against one of shiro’s gentle thrusts without really meaning to and then moans brokenly at how deep shiro gets inside him. that’s what he wants, that’s what his body needs, is shiro’s cock pressed as deep inside as it can possibly go and then pulsing with orgasm, pouring seed into him. lance is still soft as shiro works him but his cock twitches then, taking a renewed interest. ]

Yeah.

[ It's all he can manage, just a soft, low rumble of the word against the nape of Lance's neck, nosing against his hairline with a soft groan as he buries himself all the way in and just holds there. He ought to have done more - licking and fingering him open was all fine and good but normally he has more patience. Normally he thinks, he's not in fucking heat or rut. Whatever this mess is.

It wouldn't surprise him if it were the Galra trying to fuck with team dynamics, but how would they have known?

It doesn't really matter either way; they're here, the Galra aren't. Lance is here, sweaty and needy and trembling underneath him and Shiro withdraws until just the fat head of his dick is there, spreading his hole. He rears back just enough to see, to drop a hand down and grab a handful of Lance's ass and squeeze, then dips his fingers down to trace the pink, slick rim of him, shuddering. ]

Can you go again?

[ Because he knows, god, he knows he's not going to last, not when he really falls into it, not when he's this far gone. He sinks back in again, the sound of it fucking filthy in the quiet of the room, punctuated only by soft noises the two of them are making. ]

You can come again for me, you're so good, Lance, you feel so good-

[ He curves his body against Lance's again, tall enough to make it work where he bends his forearm, Galra arm supporting him while his other hand drops down and cups the softness of Lance's cock while he thrusts, urging him hard again. ]

[ the litany of praise is too much for him, he moans shiro’s name brokenly and lets the words fall out unchecked: he’ll do anything shiro wants, he’ll be obedient, he’s only ever wanted to be good for him. he babbles about how big shiro’s cock feels inside him, how he wants shiro to stuff him full with his knot and tie them together and come inside him for hours. beta hindbrain shit, all pulled from trashy porn dialogue, but lance means every word. ]

I-- I used to think about you at school, [ he confesses with horrifying, pleasure-drunk honesty, half-slurred, all brain to mouth filter gone as he fucks himself harder back on shiro. his own dick fills out obediently in the cup of shiro’s hand, rutting against his rough, calloused fingers. ]

B-before. I had a picture of you and I read your interviews and I thought about going into heat near you, if you would stop and lift your head and smell it, if you’d ask my name or if you would just put a hand on my neck and tell me you wanted me--

[ he shuts himself up by mashing his face down into the pillow, whining when a hot stud of metal drags just right over his prostate. his hands fist the sheets, clawing, until he has to burst out with another spate of begging. ]

Knot me, oh god please, tell me I’m a good boy and knot me, please Shiro please, I wanna come on your knot, I want it to be my first, please--

[ His knees brace a little more firmly against the bed, toes digging into the material of it to give himself something to push against, shoving into Lance a little harder on the next thrust, bottoming out with a slap of flesh on flesh that rips a groan out of him. And then - fuck, and then Lance starts babbling again, sounding like he's drunk, a long, filthy slur of words that makes Shiro's breath catch, his eyes squeezing shut a moment as he tries to keep himself from falling apart. ]

You thought about it? [ Shiro's own voice is gravel-rough, his hand sliding up the sweat slicked line of Lance's back. His hand flattens, spreading over the center of Lance's back and he shoves him down, holding him there with one hand while the other hitches his hips up higher and grinds into him with a slow, easy roll of his hips. ] Thought about me scenting you, fucking you open on my knot, bending you over the desk or on the, mnh, training mats?

[ The hand at his back shifts, cupping the nape of his neck, pushing Lance's face into the pillows while Shiro draws out and sinks back in again, the knot at the base of his dick starting to swell, pushed on by the whine that results from that move. There, then. He's past the point of no return, especially when Lance starts begging for it, and distantly he recognizes that there's something important there, that he needs to be able to sort out what Lance just said but the alpha part of him overrides everything else. Two more sharp thrusts and then Shiro bottoms out again, flattening himself against Lance's back as his knot swells, coming in hot pulses inside of him while he smears open-mouthed kisses over the line of Lance's shoulder, toes curled. ]

I still think about it, [ he whimpers, boiling over with lust and humiliation both. being shoved down into the pillows is actually a mercy since it keeps him from babbling even more garbage. shiro’s fucking him with a ruthless intensity now, his hips driving in harder than lance had thought than he’d ever be able to stand from an alpha, but it’s exactly what his willing body craves. he could come again just like this, pressed flat down with his alpha’s weight spread over him, dominating and possessive, but he knows instinctively that it would be better if he could wait, if he held off just for a little while longer. there’s a strange sensation tugging at his rim that he doesn’t comprehend at first, yelping out little noises whenever it pulls at him. shiro feels so huge inside him as he moves, so hot and swollen, rubbing deliciously against his prostate, and somehow there's even more pressure as shiro's rhythm starts to falter.

his body knows what's coming even if lance doesn't. instinct drives him to shove back with a keening wail as hard as he can against shiro's final thrust, taking him to the hilt, and then that pressure is swelling hugely and lance's world contracts to the feeling of the knot inside him and shiro's come jetting deep into him, thick, heavy loads that soothe the deepest, aching places inside of him. his own orgasm seems almost secondary, spurting untouched all over the sheets. his entire focus is on milking that amazing, heavy knot locked safe and deep inside, clenching and unclenching rhythmically in a haze of blissed out satisfaction. this is better than being fucked, better than rimming, better than orgasm; milking every last drop of come out of an alpha's knot so that it fills him and distends his belly, simulating the pregnancy he craves, and he purrs and croons mindlessly each time shiro's throbbing cock rewards him with another warm flood of seed.

half-delirious he struggles to turn over on his side until shiro gets the idea and positions them: still tied together, shiro's leg thrown over his hip, lance pressed back as far against shiro as he can manage, his head lolling back against shiro's shoulder. he's still squeezing shiro's knot and will continue until the flow trickles away to nothing; five minutes, or ten, or half an hour until shiro's knot starts to go down, he can't remember statistics of averages when his brain is floating in a haze of self-satisfaction. he even takes one of shiro's hands boldly and places it on his stomach and the tiny, swollen bump there, inviting him to rub and massage it: proof of how much of his seed lance has been filled with. it's meant to induce any alpha to think of breeding, obviously, and to kickstart subsequent rounds. the most fertile and successful alpha/omega pairs end their cycles with the omega or beta already looking well-pregnant, bellies swollen and soft, even if it's only excess seed that will be slowly absorbed or flushed out of the body within a few days. ]

[ He's always hated the mentality that alphas can't control themselves around an omega or a beta. He can control himself; if Lance had at any point told him no, he would have stopped, sent him away. The problem was that Lance had no intentions of doing that and-- well, Shiro supposes it's not so much a problem as it is something he's going to have to talk to him about later when this subsides. Plenty of betas and omegas - and alphas, really, hadn't taken to spending a heat or a rut with anyone back at the Garrison. There were suppressants, and a thousand other ways to deal with it. There were others who did pair up; Shiro had briefly talked with Matt about it, offering if he needed anything while they were on the mission, though it had never gone anywhere given what happened.

He'd like to think that he has his head on straight after this, but there's no truth to that at all. Orgasm yanks all the thoughts right out of his head and he's left with instinct: burying himself into Lance, pressing his mouth to his shoulder and holding him tight until it's finished, equal parts protective and possessive. He's laughably easy to move where Lance wants him to and does his best to help out, curling into him when it's done, panting quietly into his neck. The first few moments are enough to ease some of the fog in his mind; Shiro drops a hand down where instructed and flattens it against the delicate swell of his belly and oh. He's not expecting the pulse of warmth to go through him, the mental image of Lance swollen with his children.

Shiro doesn't exactly want children right now - five, ten years down the road, sure, he wants that but right now it's the worst idea. That doesn't mean he doesn't imagine the sight of it, the sharp angles of Lance rounded out. His fingers press lightly there and trace down to his dick, cupping him lightly while he catches his breath and tries to get his brain to work again enough to find words. ]

You were so good for me. [ Lance'd asked for it earlier but finding words was like trying to grasp at dry sand and build something. Now, it's easier, the last few pulses of orgasm good but not mind-numbing like before. ] Perfect, Lance.

[ children aren't exactly in lance's plans for the immediate future either; it's all hindbrain, beta evolutionary drives kicking in, let out of their cages for the first time in lance's young life. the handful of cycles he'd shared had been with other teenagers, clumsy and fumbling, and he hadn't begged any of them to knot him and tell him he was a good boy. he'll be mortified later, probably. right now he's just basking in the afterglow, purring with satisfaction as shiro kisses his shoulder, rubs his palm over lance's full belly and down to his sated cock, wet and limp against his thigh. betas aren't nearly as fertile as omegas and lance is on birth control for this very situation, but he's thinking about it too: shiro's seed growing in his stomach, making him swell heavy and round with child. shiro would make beautiful children, he thinks dreamily, caressing the soft, hot bump himself while strong inner muscles milk another pulse of come from shiro's cock. ]

I was good? [ he murmurs back, soft and hopeful and dazed, not so much doubting but wanting to hear it repeated.

he snuggles closer, nuzzling against shiro's neck and starting to rock slowly against his fingers, teasing himself with the knot. miracles of a teenage libido, although squirming like that might not be as comfortable for shiro, who will probably be feeling oversensitive soon if he isn't already. an obedient beta would wait for his alpha to soften enough to slip out, and then wait, attentive and considerate, until the alpha was ready for another round, but lance is feeling shameless and greedy and shiro has been so, so generous with him.

he could come again before shiro's knot has even gone down, he thinks, rolling his hips experimentally and making the knot tug against his sensitive rim. ]

You feel so, so good, [ he moans, the power of speech coming back to him slowly. ] I didn't know you'd feel so good, I didn't know how fat your knot would be, it feels so big, Shiro...

[ Their hands on Lance's belly are one thing, but he's not prepared for the spike of lust that pushes through him at the sight of it. He stares, can't fucking help himself, really, staring at the way their hands rest over Lance's stomach. His fingers press in just slightly and his hips push up, fucking into him what little he can with the tiny amount of leverage and his knot in the way. It's not much, but it's enough to wring another aftershock out of him, another pulse of come, enough to get Shiro curling around Lance and groaning. ]

Perfect, you were perfect.

[ It's a soft slur against Lance's shoulder, his mouth smearing wet kisses there as he tries to breathe through the adjustment, and then - Christ, he should have expected. Lance starts rocking again, eager and squirming against him and drags against the very edge of the knot, its widest point. It hasn't fallen enough to slip out but it's enough that Shiro can fuck back into him, fingers pressing into Lance's hip, his belly. ]

It's not too much-?

[ He's not sure what he's clarifying here - whether he means the knot, the come, or the idea of a second round but his instincts say it doesn't matter. Lance is ready and willing and when Shiro slides down to palm him again, his cock fattens in his hand. ]